Just before my 40th birthday, I took some time to reflect on my life. I embarked on a journey to self discovery. With each day that passes, I am more and more at peace with myself and learning to listen to my inner voice. A few weeks before turning 40, I shared this with the world!
I found myself often thinking about the past 40 years of my life, feeling I didn’t achieve much. Over thinking will do that to you, and yup, I was told that 40 would do that to me. To me? Naaaaahhh!!! Believe me, over thinking and analysing will make you feel like you want to stay in your 30s forever. In a nutshell, if I recap the last 40 years of my life, I am arriving to the following conclusion :
I had the best childhood anyone could ask for. Parents that were loving, caring, understanding (I didn’t know that then, but I do now), who would insure that we would have everything we needed and took the time to teach us manners. A sister I could tease and give a hard time (what? It was part of my job description as a little sister). Aunts, uncles and cousins, cousins and more cousins who were close. Family reunions every year, what more can a child ask for…
Friends who you met on the first day of school when you were 5 years old and who are still your friends today. Friends you met in High School who you lost touch with for a while but were always in your mind and heart. Lately, I got to reconnect with a few of these friends and it feels great.
Children, my children! How often did I wonder if I was raising them right? Am I a good Mother? Thinking they will hate me for the rest of their lives because I said they could not go to that party or they had to clean their rooms before plugging on their video games. Then I think, I must have done a good job raising them because they are becoming more and more responsible young adults. I hope they know I love them unconditonaly and everything I do (or not do) is for them.
That guy in the school hallways! That one guy you met in High School with whom you lived your teenage years. We laughted, we cried and one day went our separate ways to reconnect several years later. I always knew he was the one, my soul mate but guess I had a few life lessons I had to live before we could be together. 2017 will mark 10 years together, 3 years of marriage and I am looking forward to what life brings us.
What else could I ask for? Nothing, simply nothing! Of course I would like to say that our house and car are paid for but would that mean I could say that I have reached achievement? I realise that achievement can not be calculated by what you acquired but by the experiences lived. I have my family supporting me. I have my kids who keep amazing me. I have the greated Husband in the world. I have a job, a roof over my head, food on the table and friends to share all of that with. I am blessed!!
The last 40 years were amazing!!! I raise my glass to the next 40 years to come!
